[Mia is pleased to have made her sister blush, but all the same she's quite genuine. She knows what she'd done-- what Maya had done, in letting her leave the village. Mia remembers that unwavering smile flashing up at her while Maya told her that of course she could take on her responsibilities, that what Mia was doing was important, that Mia should be able to go.
Where would she be without Maya?]
And-- and who would I call on my breaks? Who would I take down to my favorite burger joint down in the city?
[She asks, no longer really looking at her sister, though her grip on Maya's shoulders tightens. Almost 19 years of her life (or 17 of Maya's in this case) spent being seen by her sister as nothing but strong. But she can't continue to feel as strong as she did, not knowing where she left off Maya was in peril, or knowing that here when Maya's in even more danger, Mia's not one of the people that can do anything to help her.]
All those years ago, when mom left... All I had was you. And when you started to figure things out, every time I looked to you, you'd just.. smile at me, and I knew we were going to make it.
As long as you believed in me, as long as I could see you smiling or hear you on the other end of the line, I could keep going. For mom, and for you.
You could have. You didn't need my permission to do it.
[ of course, maya always appreciated that mia asked her instead of just leaving. she has extremely complicated and suffocating feelings about being the master, and always had -- but she would never trade mia's freedom to be free of it, no matter how much it scares her and no matter how unworthy she feels of it, she doesn't regret taking it on for mia's sake. to make her happy. it's the very least maya could have done. ]
And of course I'll always believe in you, because you're the best! You took care of me when we had no one else! [ except morgan. that's a hot button issue. ] You were always so strong! And you wanted to save people! You were always saving people! Even after you left... you were always looking out for me. And Nick! [ even after she died ]
What's not to believe in? Of course I'm going to smile and cheer you on! It's not that big of a deal....
[ and it's nothing special, in maya's eyes. but she finds it hard to believe that those tiny things could have inspired could have inspired mia so much. to maya, it's normal. ]
[Mia insists, brows knit in how serious she's become.]
And it was a big deal for Nick, you believing in him. Just like when we're in court, defending our clients, we have to believe in them, believe that they're innocent. But we also have to believe in ourselves, and the power we have to defend them.
You have the power to make people like me and Nick believe in ourselves. And here you have even more power than that. I've seen you do things I would never have even dreamed of. There is nothing I believe in more than I believe in you, and no mistake or setback or disappointment is going to change that. But you have to believe in yourself, too.
[ honestly, mia has probably been the only person to ever say things like this to her. and she's clearly bad at accepting these things, she shifts a little uncomfortable as mia's talking to her. it's hard for her to imagine that something that comes as naturally to her as believing in other people (especially extraordinary people, like mia and phoenix are) could really have a such a big impact, but..... if mia's saying it, it must be true. to some degree. mia's always right. ]
Well, I... I'm glad I could help, sis.
[ she means that, sincerely. for both her and phoenix.]
[ .... with any other person, she might try to brush it off -- to just smile and bluster that she already does believe in herself, but mia would see right through her. as always. ]
I'l try.... but I don't.... I mean, I don't think I've done anything that you couldn't do.
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[Mia is pleased to have made her sister blush, but all the same she's quite genuine. She knows what she'd done-- what Maya had done, in letting her leave the village. Mia remembers that unwavering smile flashing up at her while Maya told her that of course she could take on her responsibilities, that what Mia was doing was important, that Mia should be able to go.
Where would she be without Maya?]
And-- and who would I call on my breaks? Who would I take down to my favorite burger joint down in the city?
[She asks, no longer really looking at her sister, though her grip on Maya's shoulders tightens. Almost 19 years of her life (or 17 of Maya's in this case) spent being seen by her sister as nothing but strong. But she can't continue to feel as strong as she did, not knowing where she left off Maya was in peril, or knowing that here when Maya's in even more danger, Mia's not one of the people that can do anything to help her.]
All those years ago, when mom left... All I had was you. And when you started to figure things out, every time I looked to you, you'd just.. smile at me, and I knew we were going to make it.
As long as you believed in me, as long as I could see you smiling or hear you on the other end of the line, I could keep going. For mom, and for you.
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[ of course, maya always appreciated that mia asked her instead of just leaving. she has extremely complicated and suffocating feelings about being the master, and always had -- but she would never trade mia's freedom to be free of it, no matter how much it scares her and no matter how unworthy she feels of it, she doesn't regret taking it on for mia's sake. to make her happy. it's the very least maya could have done. ]
And of course I'll always believe in you, because you're the best! You took care of me when we had no one else! [ except morgan. that's a hot button issue. ] You were always so strong! And you wanted to save people! You were always saving people! Even after you left... you were always looking out for me. And Nick! [ even after she died ]
What's not to believe in? Of course I'm going to smile and cheer you on! It's not that big of a deal....
[ and it's nothing special, in maya's eyes. but she finds it hard to believe that those tiny things could have inspired could have inspired mia so much. to maya, it's normal. ]
[ (she's an idiot) ]
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[Mia insists, brows knit in how serious she's become.]
And it was a big deal for Nick, you believing in him. Just like when we're in court, defending our clients, we have to believe in them, believe that they're innocent. But we also have to believe in ourselves, and the power we have to defend them.
You have the power to make people like me and Nick believe in ourselves. And here you have even more power than that. I've seen you do things I would never have even dreamed of. There is nothing I believe in more than I believe in you, and no mistake or setback or disappointment is going to change that. But you have to believe in yourself, too.
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Well, I... I'm glad I could help, sis.
[ she means that, sincerely. for both her and phoenix.]
[ .... with any other person, she might try to brush it off -- to just smile and bluster that she already does believe in herself, but mia would see right through her. as always. ]
I'l try.... but I don't.... I mean, I don't think I've done anything that you couldn't do.